[life] mumbling, choking on myself

Is there anything worse than the inability to communicate? I am losing my words. I hate that my emotions can silence me more effectively than any tyrant's hand, I hate that I can't say what I mean, I hate that I can't blame anyone for not taking me seriously, because I wouldn't either. If there is anything worse than that tolerant, waiting look on someone's face as you stumble out broken thoughts, trying hard not to cry because that would only make you look more of an emotion-driven child, I'm sure I don't know what it is.

I need to write more poetry. It's the only way I can even begin to come at some of the things I want to say.